The Entrepreneur’s Wife
Loneliness comes with the territory
Space. I have too much of it.
I live in a beautiful home. I have a darling child who loves his mama deeply. I have no financial worries. I have time. I have hobbies. I have opportunity. I should want for nothing.
But I want for everything that is missing in the deep emotional void occasionally thrust upon me.
It should be predictable at this point. It always comes months into the next venture. And yet, I’m always shocked when I find myself in the throes of it. I feel like a child who has been thrown into a pool without floaties and is stuck in the drowning position, head just above water but sinking in an agonizingly slow assault until an adult comes to yank me out.
An extroverted Scorpio, I feel deeply and I desire emotional attachment. Interactions that lead to connection and understanding. Conversations that last hours. Relationships that don’t just scratch the surface of emotional vulnerability, but instead rely on trust and companionship.
But I fell for emotionally unavailable. Intensely driven. Often beyond reach.
Being declined after two rings of the phone. Telling a story only to realize he was never listening. Asking question after question and receiving responses ranging in “huh?”…
